I had thought about freezing myself. You know the way they thought Walt Disney did. I wanted to freeze all of my problems, worries, and thoughts. I wanted to preserve myself for the future. There was nothing for me in this world right now. Freezing myself could be the answer. I would be a legend, and I would someday live to hear about it. Not something many people can say, is it?
We had been driving for a while. I couldn't measure the time. Being in eighth grade made me a little too lazy to open my eyes and look at the clock. I squeezed my eyes tightly shut and tried to imagine being frozen alive. Would I feel it? What if I was still alive after being frozen? Would anyone know to defrost me? All these thoughts flowed through my head while on the way to our cabin. A little wooden shack is more like it. There was a kitchen area, dining area, and two bedrooms. A big change from the five bedroom place I was used to staying in. The Mitsuibishi we were in had very little suspension. Bump. Hit my head on that one. Bump. It was late and as I opened my eyes I saw we were surrounded by forests. A car passed in the other direction every minute or so. Bump. This was starting to get annoying.
Drift back to the daydream. I felt like I was going in and out of conciousness. Maybe this is how I would feel while being frozen. Bump. Squeal. My eyes shot open and I turned my head to look out of the front window. The lights were coming toward us, but they weren't going the other way. They were headed straight towards us. My mother screamed as a pickup truck rammed into us head on. I remember it all. I want to be frozen now. I want to stop feeling this way. I can see the glass flying and it won't stop. Go Away. It needs to go away. Freeze me now please. The memories will never fade. No matter how much I wish, pray, plead, beg. They will never go away. I didn't care about being a legend anymore I just wanted to leave this world, coming back only when all of this was in the past. Frozen in time. Frozen memories. Take me away now. Please.
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